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I'm too different

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By Rena

 I realized, I'm too different, and I couldn't understand most people. Neither could others.


When this news and this news came out years ago, I'm more concerned about myself. If I fall asleep and accidentally drool on a public transport (no chance now since we wear mask. Love masks!), will my video go online? Why are people more concerned about "this girl ah" and "that girl ah" than themselves?


When I talked about bins being overfilled at a fast food place to my friends, and lament with us clearing our own table it should free up labour for such things.  My friends tell me - COVID so minimize contact, split team.  It's COVID, you must show more tolerance... Well, that was still during the last phase's restrictions --- Consumers also split team leh. Can they cope when up to 5 can dine in together. Hmmm....

I hate companies that take my photo, and put it in their website. During the pre- COVID days, there are event companies, and event companies take loads of photos. You may end up seeing photos of you taken during that event being put on their website! I'm very against that.  And my colleagues simply say that it's normal. I cannot understand why it's normal. I'm not a model. More importantly, I'm not a free model. I don't want my photo to be used online for anything. Later end up as stock photo how? So  now, whenever some stranger is holding a camera, I take a piece of paper and put in front of my face. Hopefully, my photo don't get circulated.... During zoom events held with other companies, I put on my mask whenever possible. Make any image of me as impossible to be used as possible.

In corporate work, I realize people like to show off. Not talking during a meeting is seen as a sign of not knowing anything. Talking is a sign of showing that you know. Tell everyone your department can do a godzillion number of things, when it's obvious you don't get promoted from saying you can doing that godzillion number of things or doing them. Also, most things that we do are fluff, looks good, but no material difference. Say if you are not a celebrity, whether you wear a simple black hairband, or a fluffy pink hairband with bunnies sticking up, make no material difference, right? 

Some companies have suggestions, and some great ones probably give some cash one- off if your suggestion is approved. I don't understand why some people suggests some things. I almost fell off my chair when some person suggest some improvements that can make themselves redundant -- that suggestion was demeaning your ability above automation as well. I cannot understand why they make such suggestions. Really for that little one- off cash?

I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.


I realize, I am too different. Probably, I'm abnormal.





 





Comments

  1. Philip23 November 2021 at 19:06

    Sounds more like insecurity on your end & the overly concern with "self".

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  2. camillus23 November 2021 at 22:38

    I had the same experience as you but it's important to embrace that difference. everyone is unique and we are all weird in our own ways but if I may (give some unsolicited advice).... cut lose those things / experiences / friends / colleagues that don't add value in your life and move on. you don't need those and just progress in your way. you will feel much lighter.

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